8 Weeks and counting......






I have enjoyed being pregnant. I know I complain alot. But I can't wait for the final product. I say to people, " it's all worth it in the end." Holding that little one knowing that I carried her for 9 months, that she chose to come to our family (even when I have my bad days), that she will be mine for eternity, and that I am giving her life. What a joy and a blessing it will be to have her. So here is a summary of this pregnancy for those who care to know.

When, I found out I was pregnant I wasnt' going to tell anyone. I was going to wait until I was at least 3 months or until I found out what we were having. Well, if anyone knows me.. I can't keep a seceret. I told everyone right away. Soooooo it's been a long one.
The first 3 months I got sick at night. I hated cooking and all I wanted was soup, salad, sandwiches, or any type of comfort food. So I ended up loosing about 2 pounds. The dr said it was ok as long as the baby kept growing. I ate alot of fruit and veggies it just sounded good. Healthy food is what I wanted.
I remember in February I was just 6 weeks. JB was in the hospital for RSV. I started having a little bleeding and cramping. I had to go over to the hospital and have an ultra sound. I ended up having a little hemerage on my uterus. It eventually went away and I haven't had any problems since.
Around 10 weeks or later, I started feeling the pain and the onset of the haunting things that the relaxen hormone does to me. My body does not like being pregnant.... well, at least my hip area. My pelvic bone rotates, my pubic bone slides, my SI joint goes crazy, and my sacrume goes skiwampus(sorry about the spelling). So, it is time for me to start walking like an old women or man. I fell like I have to walk hunched over or I will split into two pieces. I have pain down my legs, and it hurts to sit too long,walk far distances, roll over in bed, to stand any further than a sholders width apart, carrying anything that puts pressure on my pubic bone is a BIG no, no. I started physical therapy. It does it's job to a point and sometimes it doesn't. I do my own exercises at home and try to keep myself from doing anything major. I have been able to get a temporary handicap parking permit. I love it. I am able to walk easily into the store and I usually end up riding around in a wheelchair. So if you see me don't make fun of me.

I have enjoyed being pregnant this time. I am so excited. It's been a good preganancy I have only gained 7lbs. I was able to sleep on my stomach until I was 6 months. I haven't been uncomfortable until just recently.
I can't wait to meet this little girl of mine. If I could only come up with a name. In my dreams she has had dark hair, and dark skin like Justin. The last dream I had about her was creepy. They were doing a ultrasound and when they put the ultrasound wand on my stomach it opened up my stomach. I could look down at her. She looked up at me and her hair was dark and she had dark eyes. It was really wierd to see her.
The one thing I don't like about being pregnent are the fears that I have. My fears are that I will not come home after giving birth. That I will not be able to raise my kids. That something will go wrong during delivery. What if I am only giving this spirit a body. But, I need to forget all these fears so that I can have a good delivery. Or I will get put on bedrest and not be able to help with MK or JB. Am I ready to be a Mom of 3? I am scared to be in charge of them. I hope I can fulfill their needs and wants. Especially since Brett will be in school.
I have decided that I am going to have this baby without the help of medicine. My dr. said that the hospital will work with me and help me out. I have a good friend who has lent me some books to help me out. She has given me words of encouragement and has helped believe in myself. I am going to do this and delivery this baby and bring her home.
The kids are excited I think????? JB was not happy about us having a little girl. But, once he realized that the baby would like him and play with him he was ok about it. MK, is still in the dark. It's going to be a slap in a face for her. But, I know she will adjust. They are always telling me what to name her or asking questions. JB, told me yesterday that he thinks that the baby will come out of a hole in my back. I wonder how much I should tell him? I guess Brett & I will decide on that. So there it is in a nutshell. I am to the end and I am ready physically, but not mentally. I am to the point where I can't do much at all. I just found out that I will be starting pool therapy this week. I hope all goes well. Ready or not I am going to have a baby.......