Confessions of a housewife……
Well, today I had a goal of cleaning my house. Did it happen NO!
I ended up being lazy. I am so frustrated with myself. I am dependent on my husband to help me. I have it in my head that he should help me clean. WRONG, WRONG, WRONG…..
So I decided to let you into my world and let you see how lazy I am. I am hoping that if I do this to myself I will become embarrassed and want to keep my house clean. I am always embarrassed when people just show up and it’s like this. I wish I could stay on top of it. Wait… I wish I wasn’t so lazy that it wouldn’t end up like this. Brett will probably be mad at me for doing this. But, hey he loves me right????
So if you came to my house today this is what you would see

If I let you in a little further you would see….

Yes there is a baby on the floor playing among this mess.
MK needed to play today and I wanted her to play so I could take a nap. Of course you can see the TV is on.
Now you could say oh it’s just kids being kids but NOPE some of these toys have been out for a couple of days. Now if you could find a place to sit you would see into my kitchen and see THIS!!!
Most of the dishes you see are clean. I just haven’t put them away. But the rest is dirty and I didn’t take a picture but my garbage is overflowing. I was hoping Brett would notice so I didn’t have to bug him about taking it out.
Now if you needed to go to the bathroom or another room you will have to get through the maze of dirty clothes, toys, and baby items.

Watch out….. (sorry i didn't rotate it.)
As you can see we can hardly get into the one room… its ok because you can’t walk very far into it.

This is the toy room, laundry, craft room….. Well, I haven’t folded my clean laundry, MK and her friends have emptied the shelves. OMG!!!!
Just to let you know my crafts are to the right in the closet and haven’t been touched for a LOOOONG time.
Now I am sure some other people’s houses may look like this. But this isn’t how I was raised. I was taught to take care of things and to do the cleaning and picking up and keep it nice. I just hate it. When it was time to clean my mom would say lets clean the house….. We kids ended up cleaning the house and she would go lay down. (I hope she never reads this.) So I have learned to hate cleaning. Maybe that is why I depend on Brett to help me. But, why should I. He works hard everyday, goes to school full time. This is my job not his. I just get so frustrated with myself and my ways and my mindset. I have read organization books, went to seminars, classes, bought things to organize. I have made schedule after schedule to follow and get things done I just don't stick to them. I want to change I don't know how. I don't deserve a house or a different place to live if I can't keep up with this one.
Since I have terrified you enough with pictures. I will just tell you about the other rooms.

My room,the bed is not made, clothes are not put away.
People say it’s because we are growing out of our apartment. It is true in some ways. But, I think I need to quit coming up with excuses and just do what I need to do.

Kid’s room isn’t too bad. MK has been playing in there today.
So why am I posting I don’t know. Maybe someone will kick my butt. I am hoping to talk Brett into taking the kids tonight and I will clean it all on my own. Crank up the music and have fun. I will probably need him to take all the computers so I will stay off of them. I will post pictures of the clean house.